It is an annual ritual, a time for motherhood and the birth of a new child.
For some, this is a rite of passage.
But for others, the journey can be a lonely one.
The journey to the end of your life is one of the most difficult things anyone can endure.
I’m going to die.
You know that.
I’m going down.
You can’t get up, you’re going down, you know that, right?
It is so difficult to think of anything else.
You’re going to do that.
But I don’t have a choice.
You’re going through everything.
And there is no way around it.
You are going to go through hell.
And when I look at that, I’m so proud of myself for the strength I have and the strength that I have.
So many of us go through this and it is a tough thing.
And I just don’t want to live through this again.
And that’s what I’m doing.
I’ve just been thinking about it, so much, for the last few months.
It’s been hard, because I’m in a really hard situation.
And it’s just not fair to me.
I can’t go to work.
I couldn’t get the child to school.
I was having to be very, very, careful.
I really needed to be, because this is what I was doing.
And now I have to make a choice, to decide if I’m gonna take the child home and be there for the rest of my life or just do something else.
My life is a mess.
I have so much unfinished business that I haven’t even started yet.
I just want to be done with it.
And, you go, I love you, you’ll be OK.
But then I just think, I can just go home and watch Netflix.
I love the show and the movie, but it’s really hard to put on the show, you can’t even put the show on.
And then I have this whole other thing, like I can do this, and this, you guys know that I just really don’t know if I wanna do this.
So, I just can’t do it.
So I’m just gonna go to sleep and just wait for the next day.
One thing I’m very proud of is that I’ve actually had people come up to me and say that I was the happiest person they’ve ever met.
And I was really proud of that.
It’s really helped me stay calm.
It keeps me focused on what I want to do, and I think that’s really important for people who are looking for a sense of meaning in their life.
But, the reality is, that’s a tough situation.
You’ve got to have a plan for this.
You have to figure out how to get through this.
But, I have been through that before, I’ve been through this with my kids.
And so I know what to do.
When I was in the middle of it, I said, this isn’t fair.
This is hard, and that’s why I’m here, and it’s not just for me.
It is for all the people out there who are just trying to find the peace and quiet in their lives.
And they don’t always get it.
They don’t find it because they don�t have a clue.
I don�ve got the answer.
I am the solution.
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